On January 20, 2017 by WildOmen
((( Inauguration Day )))
Today is an intense day. I can feel the collective anger, fear and sadness in the center of my chest. I keep thinking about the women marching and how I won’t be joining them. Now while I do support my beautiful sisters, I guess I’m just not much of a marcher. My thoughts today are focused on empowering myself as a woman in a woman’s body, regardless of this government who people fear is ruler, because I know I hold the true power. I’m also very much thinking about the women that I myself oppress when I navigate my dollar based on my own privilege. I won’t forget those women who I harm when I make poor buying choices. So in that way I am no different from trump. I myself am a racist who oppresses women, kills children even, all with my mighty $
This is not an exaggeration.
This is my truth, and what one version of
taking responsibility looks like.
Although I have had poor feelings about trump, I’ve never felt compelled to blame him. Its just never been the feeling that’s naturally aroused. I wondered today if I should feel bad about that and decided, No. To me, and this has nothing to do with new age ideals or big idea thinking. He is a teacher. He shows me what I don’t want to be. He shows me my own hypocrisy. He shows me how important it is to act with all of my power and responsibility as a human being, especially in these times of darkness. He reminds me not to forget about the people who I cannot see. Who are seriously burdened by my choices as a priviledged American. My reasoning cannot forget the reason why I still have to bear witness to such tragedy on this planet. It is because I am apart of this beautiful mess. Me. I am no saint in this regard, I cause harm everyday. That’s a hard thing to swallow. But in this life, I’ve chosen to face my demons and so I’m going do everything I can, which is a lot, to be a positive regenerative force on Mother Earth.
In my own philosophy, until I am causing no harm, I will continue to witness harmful things.
In my own experience, the mirror is real and true.
I don’t think I believe in mistakes.
Holding you all so gently today.
So much love x